Still here - only not so much

[estepheia]

Haven't updated in ages. I guess I'm drifting away from fandom. Also, I spent way too much time playing various neopet games. *sigh* However, I wasn't a total slacker. Among other things I wrote a poem the other day, and I attended the Writers Ink birthday party. Yesterday I danced till my feet were sore. Every few months, our dance club flies in a teacher from Ireland. He's here this weekend. The second part of the workshop will be this afternoon. Ouch.
I finally wrote the dreaded course evaluation and handed it in. And I spent many hours packing and sorting through books and old video tapes, trying to decide what to donate and what to throw away. Moving is on my mind a lot. Also my non-fandom related writing projects. On Monday I had a writers' meeting at my place and read a scene from my vampire story, the one that I haven't touched in months, and the reactions were so positive that I'm thinking about it again. Yay!
I also received good feedback on a few poems I wrote. But on the whole I find it difficult to be creative. I can't turn off the censor-part of my brain - and therefore I always screech to a halt after just a few lines...
My therapist tells me to stop striving for 200% perfection... *sigh* Believe me, I would if I could.
Anyway, as you can see I'm not dead, sick, or gone, just in a different headspace. I'm sure I'll be back eventually.
Toodles. *waves*

Comments

[shapinglight]

I guess I'm drifting away from fandom.

Oh, dear! You too? I was just thinking yesterday how quiet it was and remembering all the people on my flist who have more or less stopped posting.

Oh, well, it's inevitable really, I know. I hope you'll continue to drop by now and again and let us know what you're up to.

[pinkdormouse.livejournal.com]

Hey, you're being productive at any rate. My fannishness waxes and wanes too, so I know where you're coming from.

[petzipellepingo.livejournal.com]

Waves back.

[sueworld2003.livejournal.com]

*Waves back*

Have a great time in the 'real world' but visit the 'loonies now and again' because hell, we'll still be here!

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

*waves back* It sounds like you've got a lot going on!

[tesla321.livejournal.com]

Well, LJ isn't just about fandom----it enables people to have global friends. How many people just post about fandoms, anyway? Please keep on letting us know about the move, the poetry, and the girls!