Drabble: Time of Lead (Ethan/Giles - PG)

[estepheia]

Crossposted to open_on_sunday
I am so out of practice, when it comes to writing in English, and my memory of the show is getting hazier, but I thought: Let's try a little drabble anyway...
Set during S2.
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Earning Giles’s forgiveness was harder than turning lead to gold. Ethan knew, he’d tried both.

Trying to blow Giles after Randall’s funeral had been a mistake, he knew that now, but it’s not like Ethan had had any experience saying sorry. He’d never wanted, never needed anyone’s forgiveness before. He’d considered himself a free man: free to go where chance took him, without looking back.

How do you say you’re sorry to a man who cannot bear the sight of you?

You don’t.

All you can do is treat every punch, every kick, as the caress that might have been.