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Feb. 6th, 2006 10:02 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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I have to write an evaluation of my creative writing course. I've never written one before. I have no clue, what such evaluations look like. Apparently it's something that most hired teachers/lecturers are asked to do on a regular basis... I suppose I have to describe my goals and how the students coped with the assignments, but find it difficult to blow my own trumpet.
I always oscillate between feelings of competence and feelings of complete inadequacy. I know I did a good job. My students feel they learned a lot, and I could see progress in their work. Still, I feel as though I could have been even better, that I failed somehow... The more I learn about a given field, the more I feel a pressure to excel in it - and then I get scared and nervous, and unobtrusivly edge away from the project... Hence the growing number of stories that defy completion. I guess I need an active pep squad looking over my shoulder and spurring me on in spite of my nagging inner voice.
My therapist says I have to learn to ignore the nasty inner voice and concentrate on the positive voice. Wish I could.
I started to write the evaluation, but an annoying apologetic tone has crept into the text. Bah.
I have to write an evaluation of my creative writing course. I've never written one before. I have no clue, what such evaluations look like. Apparently it's something that most hired teachers/lecturers are asked to do on a regular basis... I suppose I have to describe my goals and how the students coped with the assignments, but find it difficult to blow my own trumpet.
I always oscillate between feelings of competence and feelings of complete inadequacy. I know I did a good job. My students feel they learned a lot, and I could see progress in their work. Still, I feel as though I could have been even better, that I failed somehow... The more I learn about a given field, the more I feel a pressure to excel in it - and then I get scared and nervous, and unobtrusivly edge away from the project... Hence the growing number of stories that defy completion. I guess I need an active pep squad looking over my shoulder and spurring me on in spite of my nagging inner voice.
My therapist says I have to learn to ignore the nasty inner voice and concentrate on the positive voice. Wish I could.
I started to write the evaluation, but an annoying apologetic tone has crept into the text. Bah.
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Date: 2006-02-06 03:11 pm (UTC)Thank you. You managed to make me laugh out loud, which is definitely a good thing. *hug*
And I loooove your icon. Hee.