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[estepheia]

What does it say about me that I feel guilty for spending last night and this morning reading LJ posts? *bangs head on desk*

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[http://users.livejournal.com/peasant_/]

It says you're depressed. To judge from your mood theme you know this already.

:: hugs ::

[estepheia.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*
Looks like we have a matching diagnosis.
*tries to look brave*

It's not fair! I ate my St. John's Wort all winter and my magnesium, I exercised regularly, and I saw my therapist regularly. I kept a calendar and I gave myself pep talks. I thought I'd kept depression at bay this time...

Heck, I even tried to write Spike-porn this morning, but even that doesn't help...

*sigh*

[tesla321.livejournal.com]

And I do that, and stay up until 1 am writing "human high school AU". Could that be any more esoteric and unproductive? (Yet strangely stress-relieving)

[estepheia.livejournal.com]

Ack, if only fanfic writing were stress-relieving. I tried to work on a Riley/Spike bunny that I've toyed with ever since Writercon, and even that turned into stress.

:-(