Meeh

[estepheia]

I don't know what's wrong with me. I want to climb into a deep hole and never climb out again. I have headaches and writers block and I feel a deep and inexplicable loathing for many of my usual hobbies. Normally I fall asleep seconds after my head hits the pillow, lately it takes me half an hour to wind down. In the afternoons I feel drop dead tired. My blood pressure is so laid back it's horizontal. I feel restless. I feel a bit like when I quit smoking. Only I haven't changed anything or done anything different. I take my St. John's Wort every day and my magnesium tablets. I cut down on coffee because my favorite brand is no longer produced - but that shouldn't make me feel lackluster and migraine-y, right?
I just wish I could get the next chapter of Dealing written, and all the other stories that I owe people. I wish I could write. Just anything. I wish I could be cheerful and write funny and witty comments to people's LJ posts. Wish I weren't so restless. Wish I weren't so boring.
Think I'll go to bed. Tomorrow I'll cut and prune Dealing till the chapter fits. *tries to look determined*

Comments

[astridv.livejournal.com]

I don't know if this will help any, but when I'm feeling inexplicably down and restless I go running a few miles. So far it has helped every single time, it's like whatever chemical balance in the brain is messed up, gets restored. (I think there're scientific studies which back that up as well... anyway, it works wonders. And it's fun.)

Hope you're feeling better soon.

[estepheia.livejournal.com]

Wonderful icon!!!
I can't run - for various reasons and I don't want to. I wish I had the energy to go to the gym. *sigh*

I think I'll phone my physiotherapist, maybe a massage will fix me. It could just be my neck muscles being tied in a knot. Otherwise I honestly don't know how to explain the headach I woke up with this morning.

Thanks for the tip, though. :-)