Meeh

Oct. 21st, 2004 12:33 am
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I don't know what's wrong with me. I want to climb into a deep hole and never climb out again. I have headaches and writers block and I feel a deep and inexplicable loathing for many of my usual hobbies. Normally I fall asleep seconds after my head hits the pillow, lately it takes me half an hour to wind down. In the afternoons I feel drop dead tired. My blood pressure is so laid back it's horizontal. I feel restless. I feel a bit like when I quit smoking. Only I haven't changed anything or done anything different. I take my St. John's Wort every day and my magnesium tablets. I cut down on coffee because my favorite brand is no longer produced - but that shouldn't make me feel lackluster and migraine-y, right?
I just wish I could get the next chapter of Dealing written, and all the other stories that I owe people. I wish I could write. Just anything. I wish I could be cheerful and write funny and witty comments to people's LJ posts. Wish I weren't so restless. Wish I weren't so boring.
Think I'll go to bed. Tomorrow I'll cut and prune Dealing till the chapter fits. *tries to look determined*

Date: 2004-10-20 03:40 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] saifai.livejournal.com
Lack of coffee wouoldn't do it. Caffeine is known to cause temporary reprieves for headache pain, it's why they use it in migraine medicine. But it also encourages it to happen more frequently (also why I don't use migraine medicine for my level 4 migraines). If anything they should be going down.

My first instinct would be to tell you that you might have depression, as those are signs of it, or can be. Might want to just talk to your doctor in case though, just to check. Those are the sorts of things I go through when I'm my fibroid tumor is acting up again (because of blood loss), so you never know.

Date: 2004-10-21 05:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] estepheia.livejournal.com
Thanks for the tip, but German doctors don't take this sort of complaint seriously. They tell their patients to get more exercise and eat healthier stuff, and if you are very very depressed they will give you leaflets where you can get counsel (again not medical counsel but financial or marital counsel). Depression is not considered something worth treating until you hurl yourself in front of a truck at least once.
Bah.

Maybe I need a massage. Sometimes my back and neck muscles give me trouble...

Sometimes whining helps. Thanks for letting me.
*hug*

Date: 2004-10-20 03:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hesadevil.livejournal.com
It's the time of year when I get very down too. I'd up the SJW if I weren't already on the high dose stuff.

If you've dropped your usual coffee intake, you could be caffeine deprived or it might be something more serious. Are you getting enough fresh air and excercise? Methinks a trip to the medic is in order. Sound like your mother, don't I?

Date: 2004-10-21 05:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] estepheia.livejournal.com
Thank god for SJW - without it I'd be even mopier.
It's nice to have someone sound like a mother. Even at my age I sometime appreciate a bit of mollycoddling. *smooch*

I think I may call my physiotherapist for an appointment. Maybe I need a massage....

And no, I'm not getting a lot of fresh air or exercise. I am an indoors person. I spent a few hours in the garden recently but I find that exhausting. *sigh*

Date: 2004-10-20 03:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] deaver.livejournal.com
Reducing your caffine intake can depress your system, since it's like any other "upper" drug. I would bet though that it's more a seasonal thing. You know, the weather is changing, you may or may not be in a slight rut, etc. My suggestion is get out and try something new... change up your routine, even something as simple as eating breakfast for dinner, or trying a new route on your walks can alter your system enough that sleep patterns will start to return to normal. And generally with good sleep patterns good everything else starts too. Hope you feel better soon. And don't stress about writer's block, the more you stress about it the worse it will get.

Date: 2004-10-21 05:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] estepheia.livejournal.com
I can't help stressing. :-(
I'm sure the weather is partly to blame. We have rapid temperature changes these days, stormy weather too... Still...
Will try to change my routine. Thanks for the tip.

Date: 2004-10-20 04:26 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] astridv.livejournal.com
I don't know if this will help any, but when I'm feeling inexplicably down and restless I go running a few miles. So far it has helped every single time, it's like whatever chemical balance in the brain is messed up, gets restored. (I think there're scientific studies which back that up as well... anyway, it works wonders. And it's fun.)

Hope you're feeling better soon.

Date: 2004-10-21 05:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] estepheia.livejournal.com
Wonderful icon!!!
I can't run - for various reasons and I don't want to. I wish I had the energy to go to the gym. *sigh*

I think I'll phone my physiotherapist, maybe a massage will fix me. It could just be my neck muscles being tied in a knot. Otherwise I honestly don't know how to explain the headach I woke up with this morning.

Thanks for the tip, though. :-)

Date: 2004-10-20 07:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rubywisp.livejournal.com
::hugs you lots and lots and lots and lots::

I get this way sometimes; I can't run (bad knee), but a couple of days of making sure I walk, or walk more than usual, has always righted things again.

Hope you figure it out and fix it soon.

Date: 2004-10-21 05:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] estepheia.livejournal.com
I can't run either - bad knee, bad overall health, no stamina whatsoever. Walking is my least favourite activity after actual running, unless we're talking trips into the town center. Alas, I have kids to look after.

Woke up with a slight headache and it just doesn't go away. *sigh*

But the hugs are truly appreciated. Thanks. :-)
*hugs you back*

Date: 2004-10-21 03:09 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] shapinglight
:Hugs:

Sounds like you feel really horrible. I hope it will go away soon.

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