![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I don't know what's wrong with me. I want to climb into a deep hole and never climb out again. I have headaches and writers block and I feel a deep and inexplicable loathing for many of my usual hobbies. Normally I fall asleep seconds after my head hits the pillow, lately it takes me half an hour to wind down. In the afternoons I feel drop dead tired. My blood pressure is so laid back it's horizontal. I feel restless. I feel a bit like when I quit smoking. Only I haven't changed anything or done anything different. I take my St. John's Wort every day and my magnesium tablets. I cut down on coffee because my favorite brand is no longer produced - but that shouldn't make me feel lackluster and migraine-y, right?
I just wish I could get the next chapter of Dealing written, and all the other stories that I owe people. I wish I could write. Just anything. I wish I could be cheerful and write funny and witty comments to people's LJ posts. Wish I weren't so restless. Wish I weren't so boring.
Think I'll go to bed. Tomorrow I'll cut and prune Dealing till the chapter fits. *tries to look determined*
I just wish I could get the next chapter of Dealing written, and all the other stories that I owe people. I wish I could write. Just anything. I wish I could be cheerful and write funny and witty comments to people's LJ posts. Wish I weren't so restless. Wish I weren't so boring.
Think I'll go to bed. Tomorrow I'll cut and prune Dealing till the chapter fits. *tries to look determined*
no subject
Date: 2004-10-20 03:40 pm (UTC)My first instinct would be to tell you that you might have depression, as those are signs of it, or can be. Might want to just talk to your doctor in case though, just to check. Those are the sorts of things I go through when I'm my fibroid tumor is acting up again (because of blood loss), so you never know.
no subject
Date: 2004-10-21 05:13 am (UTC)Bah.
Maybe I need a massage. Sometimes my back and neck muscles give me trouble...
Sometimes whining helps. Thanks for letting me.
*hug*
no subject
Date: 2004-10-20 03:45 pm (UTC)If you've dropped your usual coffee intake, you could be caffeine deprived or it might be something more serious. Are you getting enough fresh air and excercise? Methinks a trip to the medic is in order. Sound like your mother, don't I?
no subject
Date: 2004-10-21 05:07 am (UTC)It's nice to have someone sound like a mother. Even at my age I sometime appreciate a bit of mollycoddling. *smooch*
I think I may call my physiotherapist for an appointment. Maybe I need a massage....
And no, I'm not getting a lot of fresh air or exercise. I am an indoors person. I spent a few hours in the garden recently but I find that exhausting. *sigh*
no subject
Date: 2004-10-20 03:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-21 05:19 am (UTC)I'm sure the weather is partly to blame. We have rapid temperature changes these days, stormy weather too... Still...
Will try to change my routine. Thanks for the tip.
no subject
Date: 2004-10-20 04:26 pm (UTC)Hope you're feeling better soon.
no subject
Date: 2004-10-21 05:04 am (UTC)I can't run - for various reasons and I don't want to. I wish I had the energy to go to the gym. *sigh*
I think I'll phone my physiotherapist, maybe a massage will fix me. It could just be my neck muscles being tied in a knot. Otherwise I honestly don't know how to explain the headach I woke up with this morning.
Thanks for the tip, though. :-)
no subject
Date: 2004-10-20 07:32 pm (UTC)I get this way sometimes; I can't run (bad knee), but a couple of days of making sure I walk, or walk more than usual, has always righted things again.
Hope you figure it out and fix it soon.
no subject
Date: 2004-10-21 05:02 am (UTC)Woke up with a slight headache and it just doesn't go away. *sigh*
But the hugs are truly appreciated. Thanks. :-)
*hugs you back*
no subject
Date: 2004-10-21 03:09 am (UTC)Sounds like you feel really horrible. I hope it will go away soon.