Meeh

[estepheia]

I don't know what's wrong with me. I want to climb into a deep hole and never climb out again. I have headaches and writers block and I feel a deep and inexplicable loathing for many of my usual hobbies. Normally I fall asleep seconds after my head hits the pillow, lately it takes me half an hour to wind down. In the afternoons I feel drop dead tired. My blood pressure is so laid back it's horizontal. I feel restless. I feel a bit like when I quit smoking. Only I haven't changed anything or done anything different. I take my St. John's Wort every day and my magnesium tablets. I cut down on coffee because my favorite brand is no longer produced - but that shouldn't make me feel lackluster and migraine-y, right?
I just wish I could get the next chapter of Dealing written, and all the other stories that I owe people. I wish I could write. Just anything. I wish I could be cheerful and write funny and witty comments to people's LJ posts. Wish I weren't so restless. Wish I weren't so boring.
Think I'll go to bed. Tomorrow I'll cut and prune Dealing till the chapter fits. *tries to look determined*

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:Hugs:

Sounds like you feel really horrible. I hope it will go away soon.